Okay, second post. (summary recap (newbie) took basics (2days) on a 250, got endorsement, have a 1300 in the driveway). have read and watched dozens of mcrider, ride like a pro vids. Got the head stuff and have saddled, walked and rocked alot, rode the frictions zone down the drive way and walked it back a few times. Have been working out on a left hand spring grip strengthener often. do not want to sell this bike and buy a smaller one. went to a bike dealer and was tempted to ask to take a test ride but most bikes were the same size or larger. I honestly think if I can get in a few rides on a smaller bike (500,650, 750) I will have the confidence to get to a lot with my 1300. thoughts, suggestions, ideas. I'm really getting depressed. Never wanted anything that seems just beyond my reach in ages. I really want to do this. Getting frustrated.